I am not an argumentative kind of guy. I let almost everything just go… totally relaxed and take everything with a grain of salt. But there are things about me that people do not understand, and you know what… that is expected. If I were to ever find anyone that actually understood everything about me, I would be quite scared. For the both of us.
While putting the finishing touches on my apartment, I received a text message from the boyfriend:
I can’t help but notice when you don’t seem interested in having sex. Something wrong?
What the hell? Just because you know I like jockstraps and you happen to wear one (or as you called it, “throwing yourself” at me) does not mean that I am going to want to have sex with you. Can we go a night or two without having sex? Do we really need to be having such a heated discussion over text messages? He says he would have never done so many things but he does them with me. I almost felt like he was trying to say he makes so many sacrifices and I do not… so I asked for examples.
Like wearing sexy underwear and jocks and bottoming. I just feel like sex is one of the only ways you show affection.
Ouch. Now that is fucked up. So I said that we need to talk later. I know I have issues with expressing my emotions, but at the same time, it is a choice I make. I do not wear my heart on my sleeve, it is a defense mechanism. But in this situation, it is more of a defensive mechanism on his behalf. I do not want to hurt him, but it seems like I really do not have much of a choice. We shall see.
